Fear

wow.. it's been like forever but I think I will start writing again even though it seems to be pretty busy for the next few months.

Today I realize that I wish I knew Spanish. I wish I knew another language. I wish I had stepped out of my comfort zone and tried to learn another language while I was in high school instead of giving an excuse that I've already known another language. It's so valuable and it's incredibly popular in my area.

I went to the clinic today and found that more than 70% of the patients are Spanish speaking patients. And I can't help but keep on thinking. maybe I should start taking Spanish now but do I have time?

Maybe I have hesitated in taking it in the first place because I was afraid. You see... fear gets into you. Fear will interfere with your life. Fear will make you step aside from what you wish to do or hope you can do. So many times I have told myself... I wish I am not afraid of something and just go ahead and do it. Many times, I hesitated and never carried things through.

Until now, I realize... it was just fear. Yes, I fear this and that. Many of which didn't even happen. I didn't even give it a chance to happen because I never took action.

I hope I have learned the lesson well because Ireally shouldn't fear in trying new things or learning things that could possibly benefit me in the future. Maybe it's not too late yet to learn Spanish. I should learn a little bit a day. It will be so beneficial in the future. Not because of job but also because I could communicate more with the population that I might be working with in the future.

I hope you do the same. Please don't fear to take another step. Please don't ever fear that you will fail because you have failed the moment you give up. Please don't ever let fear interfere with your ego. It's true sometimes we're afraid of losing or not doing well so that we decided not to do it. I have learned that no matter what, as long as I try my best, there is nothing to worry about.

Yeah... another step is taken to conquer my fear.